Do not allow this mask of calm to deceive you.
It is easy to believe what you see on the surface.
Look deeper than the surface.
My head is submerged under the water.
I am very much overwhelmed by all of this.
I do not yet know how to ask for help.
Do not mistake my silence for tranquility.
You cannot hear wars fought worlds away.
I know I may seem far away.
It is because my nights are spent in the trenches.
I am at war with my thoughts.
I am at war with myself.
Do not always take me as I appear.
Stars are not small or gentle as they’d appear.
Stars are violently dying and burning, creating new worlds.
They are not here to be pretty.
They only look pretty from a distance.
My process has not been pretty.
Come close with your telescope - see this is not pretty.
I am learning I do not have to be either.
I have learned too much from them.